May 31, 2006: INTERESTING SCENE: I was moving midair in “space” and paused when I saw below me an army of uniformed soldiers attempting to move en masse, but repelled by a small volley of bright, white elongated energy “tubes” which looked as though they might be fired from cannons…only about 5 or 6, it seemed. They didn’t really strike anyone but landed with a bit of a “poof” and the army was kept from advancing.  The dull army was held aloft by a grayish mass. That’s it….odd

June 13, 2006: as I’ve pondered the above scenario, I realize no blood was evident; one person was prostrate but seemed whole. My thought package for the scene is this: the kingdom of Heaven is in us and around us; I perceive it to be the energies which interact with mortal beings. The kingdom is being taken by violence according to Bible information. Some would say that this reference is to the Christ and his violent demise. I say it is more than that. Christ said “the kingdom of heaven is in you” and I take it literally! The battle scene could represent the dull, dark stupidity of mankind attacking the bright, viable energies that inhabit our inner kingdom. The ammunition used does not harm but could stun and does repel. I saw no return fire of any kind, but according to numbers I would have to conclude that only half a dozen energy entities were engaged in the effort to keep at bay hundreds of the encroaching negative forces! I can only hope that’s enough!

JUNE 06

June 1, 2006: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! J

June 6, 2006: Faith is thought energy, as is Hope. These are readily accessible to the average mortal being. These two virtues lend themselves to miraculous occurrences on many levels. Charity, the greatest virtue, is often the most neglected. We don’t exercise it much as in appreciating diversity, loving our neighbors and ourselves, honoring our parents, grace in adversity, etc. Charity is so much more than generosity, sharing and/or helping one another. However, to be charitable toward unacceptable behavior or practices is not wise, so effort is required in utilizing this virtue.

June 7, 2006: Consciousness doesn’t have a conscience.

Consciousness: the state of being conscious; awareness of one’s own existence, sensations, thoughts, surroundings, etc; awareness of something for what it is; internal knowledge

Conscience: the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one’s conduct or motives; the complex of moral and ethical principles that controls or inhibits the actions or thoughts of an individual

Consciousness is raw energy, viable and capable within the parameters of its characteristics. It has its own coding sensibility. It is one factor in the complex recipe of creation. When utilized within the mortal being, humans, if you prefer, consciousness becomes a part of the thinking process of the brain and emotions of the individual. This creates a privilege and a responsibility as consciousnesses within all the cells, atoms, etc. inform one another constantly during a lifetime. When conscience is employed in the creation of a human being, the ultimate creation on our planet, responsibility is inherent. We have the privilege of making our own decisions but we too often behave as though we don’t respect the honor.

June 17, 2006:  Very interesting scenario, about 8:00 A.M.

I found that I was in an area somewhat unfamiliar. There were clouds, but they were a dull shade, very blue-gray. Soon a face came forward; it seemed to be male; quite stern looking, even angry perhaps. I began think-saying, “I require a pleasant countenance…”

But before I finished the thought, the face turned away & “went” back whence it came. I noted specifically that the eyebrows were very slanted up at the outer edge & were quite black. Almost immediately from an area that would be my legs if were I standing emerged several energy configurations. I had a physical sense of elation and excitement! I recognize these as a blend of the purple energy and the “electric bugs”!!!! The electric part was like dots of lights in an altered shape of the “bugs” inside the purple, which was a less dense tone, it seemed, but the lights were illuminating the purple. They moved under their own power, of course, and swiftly, it seemed; I’m not certain how many, maybe 8 to ten. They were rather large! I have no idea why, but I feel jubilant recalling the incident!!! Anyway, they all moved toward the area from where the face emerged & retreated. If I should describe each “figure” it would have to be a cross but more like a plus sign…..come to think of it….before all this occurred, while I was just scanning to see if there was anything recognizable, I did see in the distance a small, white distinct plus sign floating by, but it lingered for a bit!!! Of course, “my” energy entities being mobile, they were—are—flexible, so the shape was a bit indistinct as they moved. After there were no more of them emerging, I stayed a few moments. All I noted were the aforementioned clouds…so I left them to their task or adventure or project or whatever it is they’re doing! I do sooooooo LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this crazy Other Vision!!!!!

June 19, 2006: MIDDLE OF THE DAY;  bathroom visit; close eyes; see at a distance & a bit below eye level a hubbub of sorts. It seemed that a small being was thrashing upon a surface & causing bits to fly up & down! Soon another being came from my right & joined in by jumping up & down. The effect was a sort of “snowstorm” of crystal looking matter; white; and the “beings” were of the same type. I was startled & perplexed; a bit alarmed. Very shortly a long, blackish narrow tube came from the right & sucked up the beings & all the particles! The tube was like a tornado & the matter swirled as it went inside & into the thing. I had a thought that a couple of kids got out of hand….it was odd, unsettling & funny all at once! I’ve often had the feeling that many times the energies and entities are caught off guard by the fact that I can see them!

June 21, 2006: this thought is almost too crazy to contemplate, but it keeps recurring, so I’m putting it in the file: it is this: I have the idea that I’ve accomplished some things in the “cosmos” that will enable the reigning Christ to be female. That’s it. we’ll see.

June 24, 2006: About 2:20 A.M.

I fell asleep with the T.V. on & woke up about 1:30. Certain things have been on my mind, so I want to document them now.

1. When I think about the phrase that prompted me to write Portrait, it’s always bothered me; “sweet labor, slave sister” but now I think I understand. There are beings who are totally devoted to the work they do. The energy entities with which I interact seem to respond to me with great devotion for many years. I’m sure this is true for all us humans on this planet and has led, erroneously, to the enslavement of certain of our planet mates. I personally abhor slavery and domination. I regard my energy entities with love, respect and gratitude for their efforts. I would never deign to take command or control of them!

2. I bought one of Sylvia Browne’s books. Relying on intuition, I chose Secrets & Mysteries of the World. It is very interesting and I like her easy writing style. This book includes some info on the lost years of Jesus and quite interesting to me, despite my tad of skepticism. Apparently, he spent some of his younger days, prior to the Biblical ministry with which we’re familiar, traveling and studying other cultures and belief systems, even teaching as he did in his own country. In my King James Bible, Christ said that the Holy Ghost would show us what was his (Christ’s) and I now can understand that this is why I’ve seen such a variety of things, scenarios and energy fields that remind me of what little I know of the eastern religions, plus New Age type stuff and futuristic, sci-fi things as well; a crazy mix! Truth is its own proof and one only needs to feel truth to recognize its validity.

June 27, 2006

Nothing new or exciting to report in the “Othervision” landscape; lots of Truths revealed here and there on the planet; billionaires joining money & forces (Gates & Buffet) to accomplish philanthropic goals-I’m all for it! Somebody has to take up the gauntlet, so  why not the fattest cats? I hope they will address the arts in the educational leg of their structure.

I’m restless; I’ve decided to reformat my “poetry” as disc books; something to do……

JULY 06

July 3, 2006

IT’S LATE NIGHT; hot & sultry but I disdain to use the air conditioner so I find it difficult to be comfortable enough to sleep. How interesting! Not!

So I decided to write the following statement: I am not required to share my epiphany with the rest of mankind! I may or may not, as I choose. I have no system or ritual to propose which is the usual method of self-help regimens. I want to remain anonymous and that is against my requirement for Truth! I wouldn’t mind public appearances but people would expect me to tell them how to have their own epiphanies and I wouldn’t be able to say because it is a singular experience tailor-made for the individual. I don’t wish to start a movement or “church” or new fad. so what good am I?

 I keep agonizing over the matter which is unusual for me; I don’t like to be so indecisive. I think I may simply continue with my inner quest and write as I have been. Impatience is probably the driving trait, as usual, and I should bide my time. That’s my present conclusion at last. We’ll see what the future holds!

July 4, 2006

Kingdom of Heaven/Kingdom of God: kingdom of heaven is in us and around us being the supernatural arena within which we live and dwell along with all the energy entities and beings; all are involved in our various activities and projects past, present and future. The kingdom of god is the one we probably aren’t allowed to enter haphazardly; the energy level requirement is difficult to achieve if not impossible. Most humans are fortunate to make it to creator status on the lowest level; not that it’s forbidden, but that the effort involved is demanding, lengthy and rigorous. It’s a goal for which we may strive and gives us a worthwhile project during an eternal tenure!

July 8, 2006

I’ve seen an energy area quite different from others; the configurations are of the opaque energy “color”, sharp in definition but with no apparent, specific shape category; quite visually captivating, however. Yesterday I had a fleeting thought re: humankind’s purpose, but I didn’t immediately write it down and now I can’t recapture it! Perhaps it wasn’t worth pursuing but it was a bit radical & I’d like to examine it. Maybe it will return.

I was pleased to enjoy a lovely visit from my familiar energy friends; the red-gold and green. They were vivid and very animated! So the work continues, whatever it is. I'm learning that my indecisiveness is merely an allowance for others to accomplish their tasks. I can fill my time with brain activity and I've ordered Dish T.V. starting next month so I'll have more fodder for the gray cells with expanded information access. Perhaps that will get me through the winter months sanely. The pondering continues!

Later the same A.M.: the kingdom of heaven is being taken by violence: while watching public T.V.: N. Korea has launched missiles; for thousands of earth years mankind has been attempting to practice the tenets of Christianity and it's a well established set of principles. Much violence and a multitude of heinous acts have been committed in the name of this same so-called Christianity as well as other religious principles purporting similar mindsets. Mankind's purpose, or one purpose, at least, must be to choose whether the individual shall be protector of the Kingdom or violator. To choose protector will give more "ammunition" for resisting the onslaught of the violent. Violence is not the protector's ammunition; keeping in mind the strength of thought and intent, we realize that the most powerful ammunition is resistance to accept and not to excuse unacceptable acts as "God's will". It is our responsibility as stewards of this planet to realize what is excusable and not within the parameters of a "heaven" mindset. Christ set forth these principles for us and gave us permission to be activists on behalf of the "higher order" of Beings. Judgment allows a particular representative group to offer diverse insight and opinion in the decision-making process. We're not certain who these beings are and maybe that decision process is yet incomplete; I'm sure that's an ongoing activity. We all should hope we can justify our behavior and life's choices when our "day in court" arrives!

July 9, 2006

Why are humans worth saving? Why are we allowed to continue in erroneous endeavors and committing horrendous atrocities? Why are we forgiven our "sins", except one, in spite of the hurt, pain and distress inflicted? Is it the species that's become so valuable? Is it the mortal process that has gained status in the Grand Scheme of the Universe? If so, why? We humans are so irksome at times; we’re walking encyclopedias of faults and foibles! If these bodies are merely spirit housings, why keep the same template for so long considering we're created from the dirt?! Giving validity to the Old Testament Great Flood story, we might say the creator god had the chance to erase his errors but some thing or someone whispered in his ear a reminder of the creative efforts involved in the planet and its inhabitants, so he came up with an alternative method to restart the whole project. Why bother? One can only conclude that we are worth saving though we seldom prove it. We were given a reprieve.

July 11, 2006

Cool "vision" earlier this A.M.! I noticed some "lights" within my "guide sphere" and then realized there were two spheres, which I've seen occasionally; then suddenly, there were a slew of them! They were in a V formation and bunched close together and moving as a mass into my left area just below chin level; within each of them there were 3 or more of the "lights" which I know to be the "transparent", bright beings. I'm not certain of their purpose but I was delighted to have the privilege of seeing this activity!

Also "visited" a couple of "areas" where there were at least three different types of  what we call space ships…don't know where they were but they looked nothing like what I've seen of this planet's craft.

July 12, 2006

I'VE BEEN PONDERING THIS FOR SEVERAL DAYS: Matt. 11: 12: and from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force. (13: for all the prophets and the law prophesied until John.)

I think I get it now. "Suffer the little children to come unto me." The phrase "the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence" is Bible-speak for allowing God's power to be expressed in the violence of battle and brute force. Until now implies that with the ministry of Christ and the fulfilling of law and prophecy this is a method no longer tolerated. Further, in verses 16 and 17 we read: But whereunto shall I liken this generation? (I take this to mean the persons receiving and believing the teachings of this proselytizing Christ) it is like unto children (the meek) sitting in the markets (public places) and calling unto their fellows, and saying, We have piped unto you, and ye have not danced; we have mourned unto you, and you have not lamented. The statement in verse 19 is stunning! But wisdom is justified of her children.

Okay, so I'm still working on it, but the essence is no more violence! Holy Wars do not have the blessing of an almighty Being! I don't care who you are! And it's amazing and surprising how many humans fall back on that excuse! I watched a documentary last night on PBS about gangs in El Salvador and one very macho, prominent and incarcerated member of a specific gang used that very phrase, "it's a holy war". HOGWASH! There's nothing holy about it! But what to do? The children of the wise are not effective in piping and mourning. Violence only begets more violence but the kingdom of heaven cannot be allowed to be taken in  this manner! The only method I can fathom is resistance and to work in the other dimensions of the Inside for change and a shoring up of strength of will and purpose.

July 13, 2006

TODAY I EXPERIENCED A LOVELY VISIT from the sunny yellow colored energy! It first came as a small globule & whimsically I "stirred" it with my forefinger. It soon left & I thought I might have committed an error, but it returned later in greater volume & was blended with a bit of the green tint & accompanied by a large volume of the purple in a pastel shade. The visit was quite prolonged & they all "streamed" to a particular focal point just a little above my eye level and ahead of me. It was exciting!

This evening I watched the T.V. program about the young Canadian man who heals people. It was interesting…but….the money factor always spoils it for me; seminars, books, a DVD and soon bringing his powers to the U.S.  I don't adhere to trance and/or ritual, so I will not peruse his efforts. I do lament that humans continue to refuse to accept a belief in their own powers. The one factor that wasn't addressed is whether the healing is appropriate or not. Lately my thoughts have been insistent that the purpose of mortal beings is to influence the course of universal existence by experiencing everything as the species does and has from their beginning. If we're all healthy and happy we can hardly realize an opposite  aspect unless we experience it; same with good and bad. What if some of us choose a difficult path but, having not retained the memory of our contract, we negate the lesson or put in abeyance those strengths we wanted to gain or possibly even fail to fulfill an agreement with someone else? Is this why so many persons believe they've experienced a number of previous lives? Understanding my own impatience, I must believe I, personally, want as much of the tough lessons at once as possible so I don't need to keep repeating and can get on with the next new thing! Oh, well, that's me, and we're all different, thank the Powers! The opposite would be interminably boring!

July 15, 2006

I LOVE THAT WE'RE NEVER TO OLD TO LEARN!!! Last night I watched a Bill Moyers program; all very interesting, but one statement riveted my attention, and I'm still giving it much thought energy. It was made by a  Jewish author, David something, who's written his version of the story of Samson, the Old Testament biblical figure. During the discourse, or interview, much discussion of the Jewish people ensued and the one electrifying (to me) statement was, "We call ourselves the  worm of Jacob". I don't recall the Jewish word he also used, but here's why my brain went "Whoa": in the early phase of my epiphany, I was shown a scenario of an area where there were many objects of mankind's life experiences and at the time I thought of it as a sort of Universal Toy box. I don't recall all the items but the one that stuck in my memory was a menorah that moved to the forefront and turned itself upside down. More striking than that was the appearance of a large, white worm-type figure at different times and in different scenarios. The first time I saw the worm was in an interview sort of situation with one of the robed male figures and the statement I heard it make was "…a symbiotic, sybaritic relationship…we all get along…"; something on that order, then added, "except for_____ (I wasn't allowed to hear the name and yes, the "worm" spoke) who's still hanging veils in the temple". For some reason, this information was very disconcerting to me and I wanted to correct it. I was inspired to write Search and realized that if I wrote it, it was so; problem solved.

Another time I saw the "worm" moving through space, as it were, and once a male-appearing being of the transparent type was riding upon it and looking down as though surveying the landscape below. The worm opened its mouth and it seemed to raise its head in my direction and in its belly was the intense, red fire. Now, the fire has figured prominently in a number of scenarios, as well and is awesome, to say the least. Very early on it was in my "totem" and has evolved through the chronological years of my earth life. This year I'm compelled to recall the "visions" that drew my thoughts to Jacob in the Old Testament and the ladder, etc., all which surprised me very much. Now, lo and behold, the Jews, or Israelites, are at it again, warring and killing and being killed. Supposedly, they are "God's Chosen" people and I have to ask myself, chosen for what? Maybe as an example of how not to behave? The Palestinians are not inculpable in all this mayhem; add to the mix that whole Mideastern mindset and the pot never stops boiling! Are they still making sacrifices to a demanding and ungrateful god?

I have no idea why I'm concerned other than perhaps my thought energies can effect a change. Perhaps I'll be able to send them the huge being of fire with the sword of flame and scare the Bejeezus out of their infantile asses! I guarantee they'd behave themselves!

Oh, well, this is my ponder-project for now whatever it's worth!

July 16, 2006: 5:00A.M.

The Mind/Brain connection is fascinating; you can be pondering one thing and an entirely unrelated thought pops in and takes precedence! While feeling aggravated at a male neighbor who lives right next door and with whom I share the deck area and giving cursory attention to a PBS program re: the Revolutionary War, this thought came pouncing: if we trance into an area of other-dimensional territory, we're nothing but automatons subject to the "genius" of that consciousness coding. We don't recall clearly what occurred and we cannot even speculate about the functionality of the energies involved. If the relationship is to be properly symbiotic and sybaritic, we must be in agreement on one level and in charge on another, subject to shifts in the balances of leadership and teamwork, depending on a particular task.

While encased within this "mortal coil" I grope to understand the mechanics of the entities and energies I perceive but am left to speculation and constant pondering. Occasionally, I'm favored with a smidgeon of inspiration or tiny, personal revelation. In this way, I'm allowed full use of my free will; to select; reject; accept at my choosing. I'm aware that, lacking full comprehension, I could commit an error in judgment on the mortal level. I'm also aware that everyone/thing has its own agenda and will insist on putting it into play. If I am in trance, I'm subject to the agendas of someone/thing else and my own lacks validation, but "they" don't realize I want it any other way because of my choice of method. I invite myself into their realm; not a bad thing entirely, but making me subject to their agenda in my ignorance; thus I become a vessel for their bidding, sans cooperative agreement.

Maybe I'm just an audacious boat-rocker, but I want to understand what makes the Merry go round; how did they do that? I've kept this fact secret, but I'll now share; at one point early in my "new thought process", prior to actually sleeping, I was "looking" to observe what new Othervision scenario I might be privileged to see, when I realized I was not lying upon the bed. I peered down to see the bed a couple of feet below my body. 2 WAY KOOL!!!! In moments, I was back on the surface of the bed and wondered if I could make my body elevate just by thinking it; and I did! Then I thought myself moved to one wall and then another and then back to the bed. I was  not out of body; this was not what psychics call astral projection. This was the real deal. I had a previous, dissimilar experience which taught me the power of thought energy, but that one was not so personal and up close!

Needless to say, I was as excited as a kid, but my thoughts focused upon the value of this capability. Physically, I felt a bit uneasy while elevated, yet I knew I could practice and cultivate this ability. I knew others had achieved this capability, mostly in other cultures, and I tried to decide upon a good reason why I should strive to master it and what would be the benefit for mankind. No good reason presented itself, so I thanked the Powers for the lesson and forgot about it until recently. Still wondering what useful purpose for body-elevated travel; I could save a lot of money on gas for my car! Otherwise, I can't say; except that the Biblical Christ would have used this method to cross a body of water, seeming to walk upon it. He said all things which were kept hidden from the beginning will be revealed but if we humans trance and channel information we will not be able to translate it to usable capacity.

Supposedly, every mortal has one or more "guides" who direct us in our life existence. Does this mean we should not challenge their guidance? Shouldn't we challenge ourselves? How do we learn and grow and evolve if we simply plod along under the so-called guidance of an all-knowing, elusive phantom Being whose name we don't know unless a stranger adept in the psychic arts tells us? What if I don't like the path my "guide" is leading me upon; may I require a different guide or path? What if I want to explore on my own; is my guide going to thwart my efforts, wagging his/her finger and dragging me back by my ear? In that scenario, elevating my body out of his/her reach would be advantageous! Naughty human! I want to know what "they" are hiding! For all intents and purposes, most of us "Moderns" probably helped create the very existence in which we now thrive as humans; some of us were Bible figures; some angelic messengers; one or two possibly acting as the voice of God in order to impress the species most effectively.

Whatever the case, there's a lot more to the whole story than we know and I'm delighted at the prospects of discovery, if I can keep my impatience in check! I'll continue my efforts, but it's like connect the dots without numbers! Sometimes the picture looks a bit odd! Child-like, I might accidentally create a lovely sketch…

July 16, 2006

The gryfyn is verbose today! The president of our democratic continent is against stem cell research; much debate and controversy abounds. I would ask him how he justifies inhibiting possibilities of saving human life on the one hand yet has no compunction about sending viable, living and functional citizens off to war to kill and be killed! When "God" created "man" it was nothing but a "thing" until he breathed "spirit" into it; thus does a fetus become more than merely a created thing, when it is thrust from the womb into breath-taking vitality. The creation itself deserves our respect and if "it" achieves "life" it deserves our protection as well.

All this is tied in with Dubya's evangelical religious preference. I would challenge those mindset  minions to explain their "god". From my perspective, they worship their religion, as do the adherents of all such organized practices. We are a species identifiable by our passions and emotions; too often we are driven by them; sometimes a lack of them is significant. Right now "we" as a nation are fighting terrorists in a certain country to make a statement and take a stand for intolerance yet we don't appear to be doing so across the board. Our "illustrious leader" seems to be dragging his butt in the carpet during the Israeli/Palestinian attacks; it's a boy-who-cried-wolf-too-often reaction. Our leaders want the oil from Iraq, so we want the loyalty of that country to be gained by our "assistance" in improving their quality of life. Why don't they do the same for Africa? Answer: they have no product conducive to the prosperity of the U.S. We have a share of poor and victimized citizenry in our own back yard; there are crimes and drugs whereby property and lives are jeopardized in spite of efforts to inhibit such activity. Where's the progress in those areas?

Perhaps our dubiously elected current Mr. President secretly believes these frozen embryos may be thawed out in the future to replace those humans killed during his supposedly noble fight against terrorism. We wouldn't want to interfere with that, now would we?  After all, he is the leader of the free nations…

            Later; same day: interesting "vision": the blue energy color and shortly within it appeared a configuration of our planet Earth; it seemed to be about the size of a large beach ball and quite close to me at first. It moved a little further away and to my left. I saw an arm reach out and touch a finger to one continent which didn't look like the U.S., and as the globe turned, an arm on the other side made a similar motion to another continent which was squattier in shape. These arms I saw were as in silhouette but not quite opaque; more shadowy. The planet spun and moved in a sort of circular fashion and stayed for awhile longer as the blue energy created an aura effect all around it. I looked at an atlas and could surmise the 2 continents pointed at were South America and Africa. What does this mean? I don't know. It was very interesting and thought-provoking!

July 17, 2006

O.K. still grappling with my self-created dilemma, re: publication of  my Othervision experiences;

Anyway; started reading Sylvia Browne's book again & realized something that had escaped my attention the first time in the Bermuda Triangle section: tubes for transportation purposes! TUBES!!! I've seen tubes, even felt the energy from one!!! So what? It still keeps nagging at me; to share, but how does one classify such information? Is there a category for encouragement? And it's my Private Truth; I'm not willing to toss it out to the swine and just let them have at it!

I'm restless, but worse than that, I'm indecisive! I DON'T LIKE IT! I'm hung up on appropriateness so much that I can't discern a course of action or even if there is one. So I'm a dork! I'm only human!!!

July 18, 2006

I've spent a few hours reformatting a book possibility. I'm tempted to submit to publishers but I need to check guidelines. I'm still not intrepid in this regard but approaching an area of willingness to "jump into the breach". My level of writing ability can pass muster; that's not my problem, but reaction from the public is the Great Unknown which I face. However, I've just re-edited my new format and perceive that I should practice what I preach! The entries with which I hope to inspire my planet mates have that effect on me! Good!

Months ago in my typical spontaneous fashion, I was "ready to play" but there were some areas yet to explore I now realize. I'm glad I intuitively knew it wasn't yet time because the Inside adventures have been fantastic! Now what? Perhaps the time has arrived for the gryfyn to spread her wings and fly. I could use a new adventure!

More thoughts: INFLUENCE: we influence and are influenced by one another, singularly and in groups. The human specie influences the universe and all those Other Beings and energy entities of which we're unaware. Whatever your status or lifestyle, you are exerting influence. It's what we do and we could be more effective and focused if we sought awareness and realization of results.

If/when I share my Personal Truth I understand I'll be required to explain how I achieved my level of awareness but I'm not sure I can. More self-analysis is required and then I can only speculate! Mood and atmosphere were helps, such as certain music; the little "mantra" "positive powers come to me" occurred only two or three times and was just a whimsy, to my thinking, but I admit it could be an intent with results if I practiced it (which I don't presently do because I know "they" are best with projects in areas unknown to this mortal me).

I guess it's a bridge I'll cross if or when I encounter it. I'm in charge of my planet life but realize my influence can either interfere or assist in other dimensions so I hope intuition will come through to inform correctly!

WOW! Something WILD! As usual many days-prepping to nap but before asleep; at my lower left, a skull-like head turned from back to front; its lower jaw was dropped & its mouth opening large & it showed a circuit looking configuration placed there made up of the deepest, most brilliant red & gold and some green! It happened in a flash & I hardly realized it! then to my right at eye level I saw faces that I would say were indigenous types, rather faint in a sort of morph effect the last looking like a Neanderthal. KOOL!!

July 19, 2006: afternoon: this is KOOL!! I don't believe it, but much effort was involved and the scene so strikingly creative it deserves a place in my file! I've been whining to myself about the fact that my Power friends won't show me what I look like in their dimension now. Today I saw that a smaller sphere joined up with my regular constant sphere. They orbited around each other as they moved like rolling over and down…their version of 2 humans playing leap frog, I think! I loved it. Oh…just before this, my sphere showed me, through a round opening, some type of metal work construction. There were open spaces & I could see brilliant, white lights of all shapes & configurations on the other side of it. I kept saying/thinking "What is it? What is it?" Then nothing; so I still don't know. But within minutes I saw the previously mentioned antics and the following scene: a really cool looking structure with a couple of pine tree appearing structures and some other shapes; very fairy-tale like. It was a platform suspended in deep space I surmised & it swayed side to side & seemed constructed of a dull grayish metal. Down some steps on my right of the structure came a female dressed in a heavy-looking robe & wearing some sort of crown…definitely queenly. I was thinking, "Is that me?" She seated herself upon the throne and that's it. I stopped looking. What a delightful response! I don't believe I'm a queen, but I love that they came up with such an elaborate concoction for my viewing pleasure! And she did look a little like me, even matronly; a bit on the plumpish side, but that could've been the robe. So now they've appeased my curiosity and taught me a lesson in a kind, entertaining, creative way. How could I not love it!!!

July 20, 2006:  this is funny, in a way; saw a robed, bearded Biblical-looking figure a little above & ahead of me. He was looking to my left (being on my right) & pointing a finger at me. Then he looked at me & I decided I didn't like being pointed at, so I reached out my right hand; it went all the way up there & scared the guy. He disappeared & in  his place was a younger man looking very startled; then gone. The energy color was blue. I feel if someone's going to point at me, I'll grab their finger if I can. Really, I was a bit surprised I could reach all that way but the distance wasn't that far. Odd.

July 23, 2006: it's rather quiet in my Othervision area lately. My "sphere" played hide-and-seek once behind some clouds; like I didn't see that happen! Fun! Sometimes "it" does tease me with an opening where I want to go and then it closes up! Then too, I might create an undesired disruption, so I don't insist. Faces in clouds could be an optical illusion or a peek into another occurring life; they don't last very long. If they appear fierce or angry or threatening, I insist on a pleasant look and it happens! That's very humbling. I tested the reach of my arm & it seems to stretch out pretty far! It has a shadowy look, but when it was extended into the blue color toward the bearded guy I could discern all details. KOOL!

My "sphere" has  enlarged a bit, I think; it seems to have an increased aura area. Another (or the same) sphere went to it and orbited sideways for a few seconds; it's size was comparatively smaller. I must assume this is one of the group which recently entered my "space".  Yesterday I began reading the Seth book, Validity of the Soul again. I would've given it away long ago, but it's so marked up that I don't think anyone else would want it! But Seth's book is a chore to plow through! Hence my opinion about channeling! A few months ago I checked out certain passages, but I started at the beginning this time and I'm still marking it; sometimes in the same areas I've already put lines and dots and sloppy little stars! The problem is, Seth doesn't speak in the everyday language of Now. Many will get it, but it borders on intellectual appeal and effort is required to translate much of the information into analogies and minor translations to gain a perspective to which one can relate. Even the most intent-oriented person would have difficulty finding time for such an enterprise! But I have time, so I indulge, but the effort is much like struggling through the Bible; plus it's is a big, fat tome! But I persevere. ☺

July 26, 2006

The individual in pursuit of Personal Truth contributes to the gestalt energy, probably unknowingly. Those who envision a peaceful planet will intend the amount of energy required to effect a change. By strengthening the individual, we enhance the strength of the species overall, albeit gradually. Daydreaming of the time when mankind will coexist harmoniously is a good start. Adding Hope and Faith is a strengthening factor. Taking that giant step of self-empowerment and trust in Truth Absolute is the defining "moment". Usually, we run to church or meet with our "group" by virtue of the misplaced principle that we're stronger in numbers, unaware of the impact of the condensed individual power.

I recall that my mother, who was a shorty, liked to say, "Dynamite comes in small packages". She was a perfect example of this homily! Scientists know that certain energies become extremely powerful when compressed and combined with other specific energies, are volatile and/or destructive. These are the same energies; molecules, atoms and all those little energies contained in the universe, within our bodies as well. Applying this fact or principle to the elusive, unseen Faith and Hope and Thought energies, we can realize our individual and collective strength.

This is the area where we mortals default; we don't believe in ourselves, in our impact and importance. We create a gap in our responsibility on this planet; a gap we refuse to bridge. The time has come to begin to effect a change! Step up to the plate! Make the commitment! We can do it!

String Theory is fascinating. Physicists are hovering on the brink of their desired discovery. Calling it a "theory of everything" is a stretch, but I admire their chutzpah! If math were not my weakest area of expertise, I would love to explore that landscape…I might do so, anyway, if I can find a book written for the "layman." They're close, but no cigar yet. Part of my energy intent is invested in the realization of True Science. Keep at it, me boyos!

            One aspect of String Theory purports that the dimensions of the universe are anomalous to a sliced loaf of bread which separate each adjoining dimension and because of….a specific aspect of Physics, the occupiers of those dimensions are prohibited from reaching beyond and/or into the opposite dimensions. I venture to say these notable persons are ignoring the yeast factor or, in some cases, the baking powder; the leaven. This ingredient and some others, are dispersed throughout the entire loaf, no matter how you slice it.

Did you watch that series on Nova, too? The graphics are great! Something that made me snap to attention was the setting of a metallic type structure with  dancing light formations behind it. I docu-mented this "vision" in Gryfyn Files previously. The similarity was stunning to me! I would've observed it as a very small entity, quite close and from a different angle. I don't think it was absolutely the same, just that the similarity was striking! This is something that's never happened before! FUN! Now I'm really interested in The Theory of Everything! Science doesn't need a shot of religion, but a healthy dose of metaphysics could help.

            Lately I've often seen the grayish clouds but I'm blocked from going  through them. Why? This is the territory of the guy with the pointy eyebrows where the newly configured purple energies entered. Perhaps I'm to refrain from entering that dimension until they accomplish their task, whatever it is. I'm not accustomed to being disallowed but I am willing to let others do their job; can't help being curious!

July 27, 2006: lookin' for god in all the wrong places! String theory and religions: right ladder; wrong tree. String theory is a scientific effort to find consciousness, but I don't think all those Big Brains realize it, nor will they until they can restructure their individual thought landscapes. Religions pursue God in the same fashion but have many years' head start. The Gryfyn theory is this, I've decided: consciousness, that omnipresent yet elusive and invisible factor in the equation of existence, is the "God Seed" which permeates everything. It will be expressed in a number of ways, e.g. strings, threads, branes (membranes),  short and skinny worms…a variety of appearances due to  the particular level of coding within each one. Any number of different configurations may blend, combine and create a gestalt project to form a variety of conditions. The result is found in all creation and various life forms. O.k., so I'm not a big brain, but I predict they'll come around to a similar thought pursuit if they don't give up. Think Laws of Attraction!

In the emotional arena of the theory of everything, God is the creator; a Super Being responsible for creation and every incident and circumstance of existence; the brunt of credit and blame, shouldering humanity's default mentality willingly or not. Stop and think about it: we are in charge; we manipulate God by virtue of this attitude! At any rate, Big Brains and God Intenders should snitch bits and pieces from one another; deconstruct and reconstruct; blend and bend; find the yeast in their loaves of bread; put their ladders against a different tree; hitch a ride on a new star…whatever. Eventually, a new old Truth will be restored/discovered. Whether I'm still inhabiting my particular personality housing at the time or not, you can believe the Gryfyn is going to be in on it!

            I've almost finished plowing through Jane Roberts's Seth Speaks: The Eternal Validity of the Soul again! I get it, but I find myself re-reading to make certain I get it; same method my brain employs with Bible perusal…translating or correlating the information to present-day circumstances and social landscape. This is 30 year old information; last century truth, so polishing the gems is necessary.

Changing the subject: mothers murdering their children: I call it the Medea syndrome…Check it out. The gal in Texas who drowned her five, I repeat F-I-V-E, little babies is in the news again! Not guilty by reason of insanity! The rest of her life in an institution for the insane! No healing, restorative or educational prospects there! Satan, my pruney old patoot! I can't pursue this subject; my righteous outrage can hurt someone…..!

Note: the "portal" spot within my Othervision appears funnel-like. I'm thinking that it extends quite a way in terms of perspective since the energy tube which traveled through and out of it was equal in its dimensions; flexible, but not warped. Inside it are thin rings of intense, white light energy. It reminds me of a dryer hose, somewhat, the wires within the fabric representing the light rings; but they're not hidden in the fabric of the "funnel". There's a bend in my portal and I can't detect the rings beyond a certain point nor can I tell where the other end of this funnel is located. I have detected a shift in position at times. It doesn't seem to be an area of great activity.

My waking mental activity is tiring! I seem to be working very hard at trying to assimilate information gleaned during the deep sleep period and they've been quite deep lately! Training the brain must be one of those endless tasks we humans endure!

   

July 28, 2006: I awoke too early this a.m. and after staying up awhile, went back to sleep. Meanwhile, I'd finished reading the Seth book and many things I'd noticed before, years ago, piqued my interest and I realized greater understanding now. I admit there may have been some influence, therefore, from a certain section of the book, at work in the dream that occurred. Skipping details, it was a specific scenario, moving from one scene to another, concerning the relationship to the father of my children; that marriage situation. I personally was aware of observing and experiencing simultaneously. I've had a few of these, similar in context, and my attitude was skeptical; they were always pleasant situations and I knew better. This time, however, I understood I was revisiting a situation to recreate a more desirable landscape and possibility. I feel comfortable with it! Was that the requirement? Done! Is there more? I'll do it! I feel like my old, decisive self again! Yipeee!      

            A few days ago, I had a new thought possibility occur re: the lovely being holding the papers and giving me the look of disdain. She looked familiar, as did the "ladies" who visited with her. I'd seen them long ago. She may have been a last remaining ego entity, mine or my twin's, who's been influencing this aspect of writing I've struggled with all this time. She would be very unhappy that I defied her influence, gave up and went on to another work. Perhaps the sheets she held in her hand were the walking papers I gave her! J She'll work it out to her satisfaction and, hey, if you're not with me, you're against me and if you can't adjust, then take a hike! So speaks the Gryfyn. If I lay an egg, I hope it will be a golden one! J

            Just a thought: Intelligent Design and String Theory are an insidious "reaching toward a possible blend" of science and religion, resulting in True Science. It's bound to happen. I'll be watching. J EEHAAAW!  

            Later: this afternoon; so sweet, I must document: the gray cloud area again, faces configuring; one a bearded thirty-ish male which appeared and then blended back. Then a male and female, older, foreheads touching; his expression was tender and loving and hers was different somehow; she turned her face a bit forward but he continued to face her; they were there for some several seconds and I had a sense of deep, abiding love between them. After they left, one face appeared in the focal area farther away. He looked very Biblical yet approachable, I thought; not at all imperious and also stayed for several seconds,  then ended his visit…none of them seemed to look my way; I was a privileged observer…more small, gray clouds moved about and within them they configured three hearts, rather nebulous looking; a symbol of love that nearly every human understands and used often by my customary energy "friends". So sweet! This was after an earlier dream scenario wherein I understood the reason and was pleased with the purpose and outcome. The universe is so exciting!!!!

July 29, 2006: my thought for the day: the "voluntary amnesia" we humans acquire at our birth event is a gift we give ourselves to accompany imagination prowess. Without it, we would not strive so diligently to create and explore, stretching our creative abilities and enhancing them. The adventure and challenge of pushing through the amnesia strengthens individual belief and understanding. It's a blessing! J We grow into what we were bringing with us what we are and blending into new creations. I also have some new thoughts re: Adam and Eve along these lines.

Maybe the lack of understanding is a vital factor in the creative process which evolves Possible to Probable. As my brain ponders many possible reasons for a particular "vision", I create a group of Actual options. No doubt the consciousnesses of every Being and energy entity are involved and they add to the mix. On that level a choice is made and the Actual landscape is created and reinforced! The Universe is a busy place!!!

A really cool thing about the Inner Journey is, you can stay where you are and still be where you go!